|HEAVY VENT| I'm so itchy...all the time.. I'm up at 4:37 right now because of it... I want it to stop...please...no more...i miss my old self...I'm..screwed now...i can't do anything...i haven't even seen my friends in a year...I miss them...I want to be held...and comforted...I want to be free.. I want to be told it's okay, it's over.. I want it to be okay...I WANT IT ALL TO BE OVER....thoughts. agony. itchy. pain. torture. I want it gone... I want the things I forlorn.. I want them back. I want my life back...hopefully the video call with the allergist tomorrow will improve my life somehow, but that's the last thing I want.. more medications... but hey, at least I'm better than I was..

If you're wondering,"Why didn't you say so?/what's the switch up?" Well, for starters, I was happy-ish. I just haven't been lately i wanted to vent is all. (Cuz I have no friends basically and I'vebeen dealing with this for almost an entire year now) Second, there are strangers on this platform I was getting used to it and third, I couldn't comment or text on my other account. I might even delete this. Who knows? Also, you're gonna see more of this. This is just the tip of the iceberg, so get ready.