I hope you achieve your goals as soon as possible. But remember, it takes time. Don't be hard on yourself and take it slow. It's nice to watch you grow...
Though, I must say I really like your vision. You seem to not care much about what other people think. All you really want to do is, "fun decks". You also focus on personal development. And I appreciate it a lot.
I had the same thoughts when I first joined this community. Though, time has passed. And I suppose, I've been left behind.
Keep going, mate.