Even though I'm nine sometimes I think of having suicidal thoughts and think I'm a waste of space after my grandma passed away I haven't been the same my grandpa has a new girlfriend he says that he's not replacing my grandma but now he barely has any pictures of my grandma they're all in my room he has so many pictures of him and his girlfriend I might take a break from castle for a bit. disclaimer: you can hate or call me a pick me all you want but honestly I don't care