Hey.
Welcome back dear,
I hope everything is okay, i'm not sure if this is a vent but i'm so sorry for your loss.
Losing a loved one is hard. Painfully hard..
You are allowed to grieve anytime, and please allow yourself to cry. Your mom will always watch over her little angel (You) in heaven...
Please take care of yourself, her death wasent your fault. It was something you coulden't control, so don't blame yourself on it. Please..
We love you.