Also I don't know what state your going through at this moment and please. Don't take yourself away think about your parents and your family they would be devastated your wonderful in my eyes and everyone in this community thinks your capabilities like this animation is amazing so please don't.
Honestly. I don't like staring at myself also but. I have learned to always be optimistic even when times are rough and I'm just telling that you should try your very best to not get swallowed into what everyone calls depression and have a great day - Wellup7up