Hey Corn I just want to take a moment to write this and let you know that Im here for u Plz don't be so hard on urself. u are NOT a problematic person at all. School and social situations can be extremely overwhelming, terrifying, and stressful, especially when drama happens out of nowhere. Its completely valid that you felt scared and overwhelmed during lunch.
Pls remember that even ur classmates acknowledge that u are a kind person, and that kind heart is what truly defines who u are not a single bad experience, not a mistake, and definitely not the drama around u. Everyone goes through tough times and overthinks things, but that doesn't mean u are a bad or problematic person.
take all the time and space u need to rest and heal. Don't feel pressured to talk about it if u don't want to. Just know that u are deeply cared for, valid, and appreciated just as u are. Im always here supporting u no matter what, so pls take care of urself, take deep breaths, and remember u don't have to ca