I miss her so badly I started hallucinating something similar to a blacked out version of her telling me to cut myself and carve her initials into my skin. I'm not mentally okay and the mental decline is getting worse as the months go on.
I don't know how much longer I can go till I listen to it.
You should really seek help. If you cant find anyone please use me or others for help, please. You dont deserve to be in this hell. C////g yourself or any harm isnt the solution. Please PLEASE dont do it.